A Quickie

Life’s been good, I believe.

I grateful for all good things that happens in my life (such as great friends, my graduation, my upcoming wedding, etc etc) and all the could-be-better things that happen in my life that makes me appreciate all the good things much more.

Life’s all about balance right? The Yin and the Yang. This seems to be the essential law of the world that guides the system of all things big and small in the universe. Too much anything (good or bad) is just not good. It has to be in a balance.

First and foremost, before I forget, I wish my dear a very happy birthday. Yes, finally he is as old as I am. And he has another 9 months before he can gloat over the fact that I am officially 1 year older than him (in terms of numbers). Sigh, why am i entertaining him? haha! i forgot, he is my hubby. LOL! And, I am really grateful to have found him really.

Following after, the last 2 weeks have been very eventful. The 2 weeks must have been like 2 months… Many times, I thought I should have just bang my head on the wall, and I believe the anger in me would have numbed any pain at all.

To put it simply, I had one new aunty in my office who seems to doze off each time I coach her on my office processes. When she is not dozing off, she prefers to eavedrop on another group nearby and then ask me questions on things that I have just said 5 minutes ago.

Then I have one young lady who openly declared that she is not a customer-oriented person. In other words, I will have to clear the shit that she leaves behind. And the boss thinks its fine. Oh well…

Lastly, I have one young lad who can’t seem to understand what it means by I am MARRIED. He told me he feels we could both be ’soulmates’ and asked me things like “if we are both single, would be be able to develop our relationship”. wtf??!! Lots of small actions which drives me up the wall. And whats more interesting is: he has a gf.

My quaint little peaceful office is now so vibrant with activities. Whats wrong ah? People are acting stupid and selfish. Think the feng shui must have changed. I should really look forward to the shift to Novena so that my luck could change – for better and not for worse.

Tough Cookie

I am no tough cookie seriously.

Its just funny though, how when things seem to get tough, we are able to summon a strange amount of energy from our exhausted body. You know like you are already dead from working but you just can’t quit becuase of whatever reason.

Some people loves to work. Some people can’t be bothered. Some people hate work but just can’t help it and continue to work hard. Such is life huh.

I am looking forward to a day when I could take a breather and pamper myself. but the race barely started for me. So let’s just hand on there and push forward!

Transformers and James Bond

Location: Tuas

Tuas is a quaint little park (as in industrial park) bustling with life. There’s hardly a quiet moment here. Lorry, trucks, pickups, trailers – very common sight here. I reckon this is the place to be, if you are in love with childhood cartoons like ‘Transformers’. Robots in disguise really. LOL! Don’t mind this place for its dusty appearance, its a kind of self-defence mechanism for the ‘robots’ really. Cuz sometimes this big boys run along side too close to each other, they need to spread some dust to warn others of their presence. And unlike animals, spreading dust is not a way to ‘camouflouge’ themselves. Transformers are really ‘robots in disguise’ remember, so they are already camouflouged!

Some people might wonder why there’s so little good food around here. Hmm… If you think about it, I think its becuase robots don’t eat? They only need to oil their joints once a while, get some parts replaces every now and then. So food is not very necessary.

Transformers - Bumblebee!

Aston Martin

Although there are big boys here all over, there are some really nice handsome boys around. Like just some distance from my office is the Aston Martin showroom. Hmmm.. such an ‘atas’ car name in the midst of the big boys park yea. That shows that James Bond is indeed a man with good taste and he needs to shop in privacy. This is the place where no one knows he is 007.

He can also do a test drive here, which is really much more challenging than doing one in the mountainside (you know those picturesque scenes you see in the movies?). He can not only compete with the ‘robots in disguise’, he can test the braking system by speeding at 100km/h for a distance of 500m, and then jam brake!! Oooh, thats so cool! And once again, he proved that food centres are not a necessity, because driving in such style really does not go well with having a scrumptious meal. It will all go to waste, whether you eat before or after you drive.

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Such wild imagination I have. Seriously once I reached Tuas, its not so much of an issue. I can get down to work. But the journey here is a killer. It saps all energy I have slowly. By the time the train reach Boon Lay, I am a dead duck. My eyes will be so dry, my body so tired and my mind so dead. Oh, I tried reading some materials on the train but I always end up feeling nauseas at the end of the journey.

But here I am. Had my breakfast, stretched myself awake, and the boss is away!! yeah hoo! So perked up for work now.

Decision Making

In times like this, do we grab hold of jobs that we have little passion for to feed ourselves, or do we take a ‘wait and see’ approach and choose the best fish in the pond?

Its reality versus ideals.

How ah how ah how ah?

I have been pacing up and down, down and up. I am not sure why, but after receiving such ‘good’ news today, I am greeted with a very heavy hearted feeling. I felt like I weigh a thousand tons. And therefore I walked and walked and walked. I walked around at City Hall, then and Novena Square and then at Junction Eight. After which, I felt totally drained thats when I headed home and sat my ass in front of the TV. Numbed.

Till now, the only good news is I am being offered a job. Not sure how the remuneration is like yet, though I think it should be quite fine. But I know that once I say yes, there will loads of things for me to pick up – which is fine with me. But from what I know, I kinda expect that weekends and after work hours will be burnt. Because thats when the boss is free to ‘train’ me. Hmmm…

I have little passion in this line, although it is somewhat proven that I am an employee with a high level of cognitive dissonance, I am willing to learn up just so that I may do my job. Sometimes I think I can’t afford to be choosy at this moment, because my piggy bank is really pretty dry and I’ve got responsibilities on my shoulders.

BUT I just can’t bear to just say ‘yes’ to a job which is so nothing like what I like.

And yes the shittiest part of this whole thing is, it feels so difficult to say No. I fear relationships will be hurt.

So damn if I do, damn if I don’t. Damn it!

Accounting

Accounts is really to bane of my entire freaking life.

To start with Accounts in any sense still don’t make much sense to me. seriously. I could probably attend Balwant Singh and Bean Lai’s class 3 times over and i think i still cant carve a niche in the accounting field. Haiz.. considering 2 accounting modules took me 2 yrs to clear. haiz…

so somehow when i got this job lobang to do accounts data entry, i was pretty sceptical. i kinda worry i screw up in a simple job like this. well, data entry is not exactly difficult. but its not dificult to commit numerous error. well, i guess if u not already know, accounting is really being accountable for the organisation. and its really no different from being a nanny to the rest of the company.

was in office earlier today and it is so god damn frustrating, when everyone just conveniently tells u “i don’t know”, “its not my job, so i dunnoe”, “i pass to her already, so i dunnoe”…. so wtf do they know? like me being a temp staff is supposed to be some fairy godmother who descend from heaven to help u put pampers when u pee? maybe its really because they see an image of godliness when they see me, so I should know i guess. [is that why Mavis Hee went "Call Me God"?]

so sianz. is this part of what they call politicking? with headlines all over the world bout politics, they are still so hard up for more. Malaysia, India, US, Taiwan, Tibet, China – everywhere got big news leh. why fight with them to create more undercurrents??

really dun understand. sumtimes i can forgive women for being petty and bitchy and whiny bout all the nitty gritties that dun go their way. *its a god-given females only privilege!!* BUT WHY ARE THE MALE SPECIES PLAYING IN THIS BITCHING GAME? they’ve probably lost their balls and grew breasts i think … hmph!

so there i go, from accounting to male species.

think its the accounting thingy that got me all hot and bothered.
think its the poor Tibetans who cant seem to get out of the Dragon’s clutches that disturbs me.
think its the Obama vs Clinton looong debate that smells so stale and sickens me.
think its the Taiwanese ‘i-dun-get-it’ big f*** elections that confuses me.
think its the changing landscape in my homeland which excites me.
lets not get too sexist, but think its the males out there behaving like wussies which irritates me.

think its really just me getting a lil cranky.

p/s : i still love Balwant Singh for his bald head and round tummy and i still love Bean Lai for her inaudible voice, oh biang specs and frizzy hair. haha!!

Amused

I am an evil ger.

I am happily entertaining myself by eavesdroping on a colleagues’ conversation with, i presume, her ex. This lady is married, and i presume the ex-bf has a gf currently. So what were they quarrelling about? The guy accused the lady of hacking into his facebook / friendster account and writing nonsense bout him. And something about his gf being totally upset with this lady coz she suspected this lady did it.

So yeah, the lil quarrel was broadcasted in the quiet lil office. So it aint my fault eavesdropping. She spoke pretty loud. But seriously, cant blame her. She was seething with anger apparently!

Oh well… i am not sure what left me speehless. but i kinda found it amusing. haha!