Howdy Mates

Have distance made the heart grown fonder? Like i mean, have you missed me updating my crap stuff here? okok, dun answer me if your answer is No. I will just pretend no one read my blog and continue writing! LOL!

I am really just joking.

I’ve been kept on my toes with many many things. SO much I wanna update in my private space, but I realised I havent even had time to catch up on my sleep. My eyes are aging faster than they are supposed to. Not good at all

Wedding News

1) Settled my gowns! once again – they look simply lovely! not sure how i look in them, but they sure look great!

2) Bought my first branded good of my life. Quite an experience – the whole shopping experience was too quick. Ain’t got the time to feel my heart stop beating, or my wallet starts to sting from having too little cash to pad it, or my legs wobbly from extravagance – before i made my payment. But all these sensations came surely after i stepped out of the shop! haha!tell u guys more, soon!

3) Bought my wedding heels. Gonna be the tallest heels i own in my whole entire freaking life. But its pretty !

4) My mum is beginning to freak out from some sudden panic attacks that she conjured when she start to think in depth (aka think too much). but yeah, i know she meant well and I have no doubt no one wants my wedding to go more smoothly than her.

Miscellaneous News

1) Bad news at work. Not sure how to deal with news like that…. Hmmm.. always look at the bright side of life? not too sure bout that. i am an eternal optimist… which means i get over bad news pretty fast. but i am not sure if thats a good thing altogether. coz at times i really feel my motivation get eaten away from the increasing output of my energy and time and the decreasing monetary reward i am inputting in my back…

2) Need to manage my finances better, man! not sure how, but some how. haha!

****

nights everyone. till i tap the keyboards again, make sure u drink loads of water, get enough rest, take some vitamins, and don’t panic even if H1N1 has hit the SG shores. The health ministry says its fatality rate is lower than that of common flu right? haha!

Getting started and A lady I didn’t like

Life’s a bitch! LOL! Nah, it really isn’t. Because I think it is not a female. haha! No sexist intentions here, but I think at present Life’s great really. To know that you can do so much more than you are doing right now in this time frame. To know that the possibilities are endless and there are always chances that things is going to be so much better than before, IF we move our ass and get started with doing things which brings us to that state!

Hmmm.. I guess the beginning is always the toughest. Thats when Life is really a Bitch. When you get started, you are always faced with inertia. Possibilities are made to look impossible. What you say that is achievable seems to be unsurmountable. You are running but feels like you’re chained to cannonballs. You are swimming but the water feels like thick grease. *Hmmm.. sounds like I am so in need of Gatorade huh?*

Why am I feeling this way… coz I really wanna get started to run a distance (as in really put on the running shoes and run a few km). Which is nowhere near getting started. But I am pressing on… trying to be more disciplined and press on when my body threatens to surrender from the years of under-utilisation. Can you imagine, my initial attempts in running resulted in stitches at my waist! MY god, I haven’t had stitches when I run since Primary School la! So behold my countrymen, Suet shall press on and emerge victorious!!!!!

I am terribly slack as a bride to be really. My friend who is 15 months away from her wedding is already taking drastic measures like eating some weight loss pills and doing crunches every day, complete with some exercise regime regularly. I am totally slack even with 6 months more to go. I would really like to think I am normal… I would like to get trim and toned for my wedding, but some bride to be-s seem to be making pre-wedding preparations sounds like a disaster… omg.

Lets chill people. Lets do whats needed and enjoy the process. At the meantime, I would still love to indulge in my favourite sinful fares once in a while. *Awwww… please don’t tell me I am supposed to abstain from them?! A few sinful calories won’t do much damages!* heheh!

Of course on a more rational note, I am happy with my current weekly work out plans, eating things I like and oh yes, I’ve been getting off work a little earlier these days! Thats an achievement! So life’s generally going great for me.

******

Just to share a little experience I had today.

After Darren bought his spectacles from a shop, I told him, “I will never come back to this shop and buy from that lady. I don’t like her.”

Darren was surprised that I didn’t like her, coz he didn’t see the rationale behind it.

The lady was recommending some specs to Darren and say that he needed something sharper (which will enhance his proffesional image) and that his current specs was too ’student-like’. Ok, fair enough. Then she said to me, “Ay, you don’t mind. He need something more mature, coz he look younger than you leh.”

*roll eyes. ROLL eyes. ROLL EYES! |||-_-

Then she went on, “After I gave birth, my husband also look younger than me, thats why I made him buy specs which are squarish and sharper… blah blah blah…”

ok fine, her husband looked younger than her too… but thats AFTER SHE GAVE BIRTH!

*roll eyes even more.. |||*_*

Walau eh. Her sales tactics are really pretty adverse compared to most places ah…

Some truths hurts, but I think most women are probably petty in this department. And I guess its usually better to just highlight the positive, than to contrast the positive.

Conclusion: I am petty. And I still don’t like her. Hmph! And Darren had a good laugh over my pettines…

Simplicity is bliss

There comes a time when I fell in love with Cable TV all over. Although most of the dramas that they are showing are really repeated.

I was watching some cantonese drama on channel 48, then surfed over to channel 55 and then to channel 56. LOL! Also caught an episode of CSI Miami. I kind of missed House. Although I not quite sure if its still showing. haha!

So what have I been up to? I am getting started on my wedding plans. I have engaged my actual day photographer. I loved his photography and the good thing is he didn’t blow our budget. A great balance of value and quality. haha!I will write more of him next time.

Been to The Wedding Present to confirm my wedding gown. The first time I saw it was like 4 months ago. Looking at it 4 months later, I think the gowns are really breathtaking! Lets hope it makes me a pretty bride yea!

Also went to Mandarin Oriental to see the venue. We (or rather, I) fell in love with the place all over again. Simple and cozy and lovely.

Haha! I think i sounds too much in love. I shall stop. The next thing in my list is gonna be intensive shaping up for me. so gotta work something around my punishing schedule and rid the flabs.

Dum Dee Dee

I bored shitless these days. Or should I really be ‘full of shit’ these days?

- Sigh – pathetic me is suffering from constipation. Fruitless toilet trips. I bet 2 kg of my weight accounts towards the waste materials storing up in my intestines and they better get the hell out of my ass. My usual tummy has now swell to resemble a 3 months pregnant lady… how embarassing…

My apologies if I had sounded crude and disgusting. You ain’t hearing nothing yet really. My best friend from poly and I used to disgust such ‘waste matters’ over the dining table in a matter of fact manner, and it didn’t spoit our appetite. Although I can’t say the same for the other friends who share the table with us… Err… why am I sharing such a gross side of me? lol!

Anyway, some of you probably has seen a really gross and funny side of me. Some of you probably will never see it. As we grow older, we’ve got to learn to be shy. Especially on the social platform. Damn social etiquette. They made me so fake. haha! Actually I don’t even know which is the real me. The shy one or the shameless one. haha!

I realised wordpress’ interface has just gotten a little depressing. I am not sure if its wordpress or its my mac. well, ok lets just say its my mac. Does that warrant me to upgrade to the new 17″ MacBook? Or maybe the 20″ iMac? plleeeeasee… They are looking smokin’ hot!! But I am really just joking. I am really happy with my current 13″. Its handy and I really just surfs the net with it.

Work Life balance to me is still myth. But I aim to make it come true soon. Starting work at this co has been really great. People are great. Whats not to like, when your colleague keep harping on the fact that you are pretty? hahah! On a serious note, thats really just the prelude to telling you, there’s work he needs you to do. haha! But its ok, as long I am pretty. haha! *bimbo! Work has been hectic, with lotsa housekeeping to be done. But it seems kinda impossible, becuase there’s no breathing space for me to do housekeeping. Since there’s no chance to upkeep the house, lets just burn the house down? kekeke!

I have just survived my first one month at work. And it felt like 6 months has flashed passed. Now… does it mean, I felt like I am so familiar with my work already or does it really mean, I feel six months older in the duration of one? haha

Suety’s thoughts are messed up tonight. Sharon’s at UK till 2nd week of May. She hasn’t met her girlfriends for the longest time. She misses her them. She need to get in touch with EArth… There’s a sense of insecurity when you feel that you have flew too far away from the familiarity the Earth for the distant strange skies. She needs to feel her feet unite with the stability of the ground. It gives a strange sense of comfort.

Last Saturday, Suet went a friend’s housewarming party. It felt strange. Strange becuase the few months gap has made her felt so awkward with her friends. She is mentally tired, she can’t focus much on the conversations and her mind seems incapable to retain information for long. Thats bad news really.

I guess, Suet needs to get rested. Probably get something to nourish her weak brains. LOL! Good night everyone. Thanks for staying tune!

Just a thought…

“Alone in the crowd”

and

“In the crowd alone”

Are they the same or different? Just wondering. hmmm..

Secretly I wished

Secretly I wished I had better brains to process more information. I feel like a 486 living in the world of the Pentium Duo Core…

Secretly I wished I would have 4 kids after marriage. Errmm.. Maybe 3 is a less scary figure. But lets see if the first one tramatises me! haha!

Secretly I wished I could be a full time mother to see my children grow. And not leave them to the maid. Although I never had the intention of ever hiring a maid.

Secretly I wished my temper is less furious than it is now. Its scary when I realised I am not as gentle as I remembered myself to be. But hey, thats part of growing up? haha!

Secretly I wished my boss would increase my pathetic salary soon. And not deduct it. Its funny how companies usually deduct pay  just becuase the economy is not good…  even when they are doing well..

Secretly I wished I would have the courage and wisdom to be the kind of mother I want to be and not the kind of mother that I’ve learnt to become. Man is sometimes blessed because of his experiences, but they are also often impaired by them..

Anyway, all this wishes I have secretly are no longer secrets, are they? lol! And most importantly, secretly I wished I had none of these wishes and just get back to reality! haha!

Time to sleep everybody!

Here’s my song of the moment for you guys to enjoy – Don’t Look Back in Anger – Oasis

p/s: i am generally in quite a happy mood tonight. just in case i sounded not too happy throughout my post. lolol!!

Blabberdy Boo

1) I begin to find reading blogs entertaining. Yes I know blogging has been the ‘in’ thing since 5 years ago. Everyone these days own a blog. But I grew to appreciate those blogs where splashes of colours and images feed my visual appettite, where daily thoughts and rants provoke reflections in my mind, where snippets of lives bring me closer to my loved ones despite the punishing schedules that forces the distance upon us. Ditch those blogs that mindlessly curse at every other thing in life, or those that blatantly lacks humility is off my must-reads. Never liked them anyway. So, those on and off my reading list should just continue writing, cause u make my day! (p/s: some of them are “off my list”, because they are not suppose to know that I am reading them! lol!)

2) Been to the first rock concert of my life. If Oasis qualifies to be a Rock band. LOL! It was uber cool to immerse myself in the heart thumping, ear deafening beat of the music. Some familiar tunes which are still my all time favourites are like “Don’t look back in Anger”, “Champagne Supernova”, “Wonderwall”… Theses are called the ‘anthem tracks’ of Oasis. I mean u can’t say you love Oasis if you don’t know these song right? I was so in awe when the whole indoor stadium sang the chorus of “Don’t look back in Anger” while Noel Gallagher strum the guitar. so in awe… and I left the stadium with semi-deaf ears!

OASIS tickets

Oasis Concert

3) My work place is quite sweet little place. Its one of the rows of town houses along Chinatown. Kind of like the place for its natural lighting, wooden floors an old-school-ness. Don’t like it coz the air con is blowing right above my neck and I can’t turn the temperature up, becuase if its just nice for me, its too warm for the rest of the room…

Next to my seat, when the doors are opened

The view out there

Tough Cookie

I am no tough cookie seriously.

Its just funny though, how when things seem to get tough, we are able to summon a strange amount of energy from our exhausted body. You know like you are already dead from working but you just can’t quit becuase of whatever reason.

Some people loves to work. Some people can’t be bothered. Some people hate work but just can’t help it and continue to work hard. Such is life huh.

I am looking forward to a day when I could take a breather and pamper myself. but the race barely started for me. So let’s just hand on there and push forward!

Em,power’ment

Work has been good for me thus far. Quite a lot to be done because somehow the lady before seems to be a superwoman. She was handling so many things within the office that I suspect my boss should really have listed “superwoman” as one of his requirements when he advertised for this position.

I am feeling so exhausted from work today. Clearing back logs and some other stuff. My mind was totally blank when I took the MRT home. I felt hungry yet at the same time  my stomach was kinda bloated – not very good sign for a bride to be. My work out plans got to kick off soon, baby.

I had a quick dinner at KFC. Well, yeah at KFC alone. Usually, I would rather go hungry than eat alone. But after thinking, I decided I was too hungry and exhausted to not eat.

At KFC, I saw this girl (presumably a teacher from JC) talking to / teaching / lecturing a group of three JC students. I begin to get worried for the next generation. Well, I was quite sure if I were one of the three students there, I would pack up and scram.

Apparently she was sharing with them some stuff on doing well for their General Paper. But I just felt the way she share her knowledge was quite ‘cocky’. She started explaining the meaning of “verbs”, “adjectives”, “nouns” to the boys. The she went on talking about adding a “modifier” to “nouns” to paraphrase a sentence. blah blah blah… Hmmm.. sounds like a very ’scientific’ way to learn a language huh…

Well not sure if the boys were listening but I could hear her speech loud and clear, and the boys went all quiet. There’s probably nothing wrong bout the information she is sharing, but I thought the boys were 17 / 18 years and not 7 / 8 years old. Just kinda dumb.

Anyway, I was soon back to my ’stoning’ mode.

Took a hot shower when I am home. It felt really great! Then my mind drift back to the scenario at KFC. I think I know why I felt so disturbed by this incident. I suddenly found “empowerment” such an important factor when it comes to teaching. At 17/18  years old, they are almost adults. They should be taught in a way that they are empowered to think out of the box and not bind themselves within the box, to something so insignificant and unimportant as “nouns”, “adjectives” and “verbs”.

-duh!

***

Hahaha!! Guess what, after writing the last sentence, I totally lost my whole train of thoughts! And therefore I decided to conclude my post by saying good night. I think my brain is nudging me to just go and sleep! haha!

Gran Torino

Gran Torino

Darren and I caught Gran Torino today.

A very simple show. Featuring a 1972 gorgeous vintage car. About estranged family ties, building relations with people within the community, learning to deal with cultural differences, life and death, cause and effect and a case of sacrifice for greater good. This was what I observed anyway.

I suspect this show is really great because of Clint Eastwood. He is such a irritable guy who really has a nice heart. He has learnt much bout death in his long life, but not much about life yet. So while his relationship with his sons are estranged, he learnt to be nice and to care and protect his neighbours. I guess for me, it was extremely touching when he somewhat decide to choose the way he die. I mean with some kind illness which causes him to cough blood, he probbaly is gonna die anyway. But he decided to go for a confession which is what his late wife had wanted, he made a fitted suit for himself (for his funeral) and chose the way to die (so that he could protect his neighbours).

My review ain’t doing this movie much justice, but I give it thumbs up!

It was so embarassing because at the end of the show, his confrontation with the gangsters led to his death. They shot him many many times. And my tears were like an open tap! So embarassing because I left the cinema with my eyes all red and swollen… OMG.. Its been a great movie (to me) nonetheless!