This is it

Yes I think “This is it” is very apt a title for this “movie”. I thought it more like a documentary or a music video compilation actually. But This Is It is a very nicely produced documentary on MJ’s last moments.

Before I went watched this show, I was damn prepared for it to suck. I really thought it would be a production with the sole purpose to milk money out of the dead superstar’s name. But Darren and I was still keen to watch it nonetheless, because of the dead superstar. So whichever way you look at, the producer couldn’t have made a loss. Whether the show sucked or not, people will still flock to watch it becuase of MJ.

So today Darren and I went to watch this video documentary. We were amazed.

We were amazed by how MJ has aged. There was little sign of him being frail and nervous and almost dying. But he was there full of vigour, singing as well as he has always been, and his creativity was probably at its peak. There was no moonwalking and that 45degree leaning forward dance, but he danced really well for a 50 yr old nonetheless. And Darren and I felt that he is fitter that anyone of us has ever been.

This video worked for me. It reminded me of the inspiration MJ represents. He loved to a fault. Love for his family, his fans, his music, his planet. Too much of it… but not much for himself. Probably thats what killed him? But well, too much debate on what killed him. Not keen to discuss.

But since the man is no longer living, i think This Is It is a wonderful tribute which allows his fans to remember him as he probably wanted them to. if he was ever frail, nervous, weak and dying, I don’t think he would ever want his fans to see them. Therefore, by showcasing his creativity, his music, I think its a great way to remember the man.

As for those who says “This is Not It”, I’d say “Get a Life”. I want to remember MJ as an inspiration to the world, and I am glad that “This is it” has captured the great performer he has always been.

 

My Sister’s Keeper and My Husband’s Wife

My Sister’s Keeper

I caught My Sister’s Keeper on Saturday. I have not read the book but I must say the story is so compelling and touching. There’s not just one protagonist in this story (like most other), but i thought every characters’ perspective was very well depicted. This story is very thought provoking, much like writing a GP essay on Euthanasia. LOL! The right vs wrong kinda stuff.

The cast is fairly unknown (to me) – except for Cameron Diaz. I thought Abigail Breslin was very pretty and precocious, and her brother Evan Ellingson was pretty good looking too! OMG OMG… and that Taylor dude is so smoking! *drool* (he looks better bald i think) Looks aside, I am not quite sure how to comment on acting skills etc.

My verdict if you are interested to know is: MUST WATCH! – ok fine, maybe I should give some credit to the author for writing such a nice book.

It was truly thought provoking for me. and I think the whole movie must have been well around 1.5hrs? But I am such a joker to have cried for like an hour during the movie. I am such a loser I know to be crying over a movie (in public). -sigh- But it is an extraordinary story – to me that is. See Cameron Diaz try all her life to keep her daughter alive. See despite how Kate is gonna die, she still encourages her siblings. See how the father loves his children in his understanding ways. See how despite all pain, Anna still loves her sister so much. See how Taylor died quietly… Awww… life’s fragility is such poetry.

The aftermath: my eyes were so swollen the next day…  My eye lids had some tinge of blue (probably slightly bruised due to the constant wiping of tears in public).. and my mum thought something terrible happened. haha! She concluded I was crazy after hearing that I cried in the movie. I am so gonna read the book!

My Husband’s Wife

Briefly, my husband went for his reservist this week. Yes, the time of the year to be operationally ready (even if you are not). I am grateful for this NS / Reservist stuff actually. Its a little time consuming, and it makes no sense from the business point of view. But someone’s gotta defend the country nonetheless. So if Singaporeans aren’t gonna do the job, who else? So I am quite proud of my husband when he goes for his reservist.

And guess what, its my first time folding that (retarded) sleeves of the Army No 4. How retarded can it be? Well, try it to know. haha! And i polished my first pair of shoes!

So proud of myself.

The sacrifice – Two finger’s nail. The wax got into my nails, and darn I gotta clip them off… And now my index and middle finger on my right hand has got ugly nails….

Losing, Remembering and Finding It Back again

In life, we often lose something unknowingly. Probably some days ahead, we remembered we use to have this something, but don’t know where its left at, don’t know if we’ve dumped it…. Its just lost forever.

Some of the lucky times, we will find back this little things that we lost. While most other times, these lost items never find their way back.

I am quite cool when things are lost. I feel a tinge of sadness, and regret for not keeping a close eye on it. I am mostly able to rationalise why its lost and I accept the consequences of it being lost, due to my lack of care.

But when I do find back these special things, I really feel damn fortunate. Perhaps its with them being lost in time, that made me missed them much. When I find them back, I know I will treasure them more. With more care and more attention, I hope to keep them safe and close to me.

The other part of me often quietly tell myself that if it really does get lost again somehow, its probably destined not to be by my side. And has left to seek better fortune with its new owner.

With each lost, we gain something in return. However I think its only me who determine, what I have lost and what I have gained in return. Some things in life can never be lost, some can never be found, some can only be found when lost, and some are lost when found.

Somethings stirring

Suddenly, life’s pace quickened quite a big deal for me. Every week is packed with some stuff to be done. And during days that I find myself exceptionally free and brain-dead, I kinda worry. Coz it probably means there’s things which is not done yet.

Such is the slowly retarding brains of a 27 yr old. Sigh, life’s barely beginning Suet. Please get your brains to wake up! LOL!

I was thinking as I am now busying myself with the wedding preps, I have got tons of plans for after wedding!! I wanna go take up photography classes. Like, really seriously learn how to use that machine I have at home. I wanna take up cooking classes as well! I was looking at this cooking school and their food sounds good. But I am a picky eater, I don’t take beef or mutton, or dairy products or most type of mushrooms… -sigh- perhaps I should start learning from my mum or my mum-in-law. haha!

Such are plans I have! Lets get them executed one day!

A Quickie

Life’s been good, I believe.

I grateful for all good things that happens in my life (such as great friends, my graduation, my upcoming wedding, etc etc) and all the could-be-better things that happen in my life that makes me appreciate all the good things much more.

Life’s all about balance right? The Yin and the Yang. This seems to be the essential law of the world that guides the system of all things big and small in the universe. Too much anything (good or bad) is just not good. It has to be in a balance.

First and foremost, before I forget, I wish my dear a very happy birthday. Yes, finally he is as old as I am. And he has another 9 months before he can gloat over the fact that I am officially 1 year older than him (in terms of numbers). Sigh, why am i entertaining him? haha! i forgot, he is my hubby. LOL! And, I am really grateful to have found him really.

Following after, the last 2 weeks have been very eventful. The 2 weeks must have been like 2 months… Many times, I thought I should have just bang my head on the wall, and I believe the anger in me would have numbed any pain at all.

To put it simply, I had one new aunty in my office who seems to doze off each time I coach her on my office processes. When she is not dozing off, she prefers to eavedrop on another group nearby and then ask me questions on things that I have just said 5 minutes ago.

Then I have one young lady who openly declared that she is not a customer-oriented person. In other words, I will have to clear the shit that she leaves behind. And the boss thinks its fine. Oh well…

Lastly, I have one young lad who can’t seem to understand what it means by I am MARRIED. He told me he feels we could both be ’soulmates’ and asked me things like “if we are both single, would be be able to develop our relationship”. wtf??!! Lots of small actions which drives me up the wall. And whats more interesting is: he has a gf.

My quaint little peaceful office is now so vibrant with activities. Whats wrong ah? People are acting stupid and selfish. Think the feng shui must have changed. I should really look forward to the shift to Novena so that my luck could change – for better and not for worse.

Jet Lagged in SG

You know its really not impossible to be jet lagged by staying put in Singapore. How is that possible? Well, thats what i am going through now. LOL!

Its been a long time since I published an entry here. I hereby offer my heartfelt gratefulness to those who are still standing by this web address and believing that I will return to write something (crappy or not) one day. I saw many drafts sitting on my wordpress admin and sincerely hope that this entry will really get published. I think it will.

Many things went through my mind these couple of months. Life is still very normal. Everything is going by its regular routine. No surprises. Work wise, things are fine. I’ve learnt that work is really just work (as Wilfrid commented in some entries earlier. LOL!). I decided somehow that if work can’t be finished, it just won’t be finished. And if there’s some sort of urgency to be completed, I guess the person who pass the job on to me, better have some decency in planning in advance. Coz its just not worth taking time out of my “life” and putting it into my “career” (if there’s any to speak of). I kind of decided my “life” does not equate to my “work”. So, these realisation probably came 4 months late, but well, better late than never. I still am kinda late for appointments sometimes due to work, then again, thats the next thing I am gonna fix.

My sister’s given birth to a healthy baby boy. 3.345kg. A very heavy little boy indeed. I’ve got some of his pictures, but will put it up some other day. He is really tiny and its kinda scary carrying something so fragile sometimes.

I did my photoshoot yesterday. The whole affair was tiring. It was hot the whole day. But I guess hot weather is usually good news for photography. Especially when the weather has been erratic recently. Cloudy and raining on some days, bright and shiny on others. I am kinda worried I will look terrible on the photos, because the photographer seem to like taking my side profile. But I thought my side profile was not very flattering… But well, we’ll see how the photos turn out to be! *fingers crossed*

But I must say the makeup and hairdo was really “wow”! It was nothing like what I imagine myself to look like (in a good way). I felt like I was doing some photoshoot for the magazine pages. LOL! Well, briefly glancing at the mirror gave me that impression, although I am not sure if reality was at such. While at one of the locations, I became part of the tourist attraction. The japanese tourists were whipping out their point and shoot cameras taking photos of me. Muahaha! One family (not sure where they hail from really, maybe some Indian region. But i was sure they are tourist too!) was singing some cheers in their native language when I walk past them. So funny! LOL!

The aftermath of the photoshoot is that my face is now a little off-balanced. felt kinda oily with some bumps threatening to appear. My hair was terrible! My usually “lustrous and often mistaken to be rebonded” hair is now kinda dry as a result of all the hair spray. wah! Its damn depressing I tell you! But I have faith, my hair will be fine soon… its time to go shopping for that Pantene 3 minute life-saving treatment conditioner. See if it saves my life. haha!

So after a long day yesterday, I slept the entire freaking day today. The only time I woke up was for breakfast and lunch, then dinner. Now, I am too awake to sleep… Looks like I am geared up for the US clock now.

The dreadful part is tomorrow morning… Where I am really sure, I will be feeling real shitty.

Howdy Mates

Have distance made the heart grown fonder? Like i mean, have you missed me updating my crap stuff here? okok, dun answer me if your answer is No. I will just pretend no one read my blog and continue writing! LOL!

I am really just joking.

I’ve been kept on my toes with many many things. SO much I wanna update in my private space, but I realised I havent even had time to catch up on my sleep. My eyes are aging faster than they are supposed to. Not good at all

Wedding News

1) Settled my gowns! once again – they look simply lovely! not sure how i look in them, but they sure look great!

2) Bought my first branded good of my life. Quite an experience – the whole shopping experience was too quick. Ain’t got the time to feel my heart stop beating, or my wallet starts to sting from having too little cash to pad it, or my legs wobbly from extravagance – before i made my payment. But all these sensations came surely after i stepped out of the shop! haha!tell u guys more, soon!

3) Bought my wedding heels. Gonna be the tallest heels i own in my whole entire freaking life. But its pretty !

4) My mum is beginning to freak out from some sudden panic attacks that she conjured when she start to think in depth (aka think too much). but yeah, i know she meant well and I have no doubt no one wants my wedding to go more smoothly than her.

Miscellaneous News

1) Bad news at work. Not sure how to deal with news like that…. Hmmm.. always look at the bright side of life? not too sure bout that. i am an eternal optimist… which means i get over bad news pretty fast. but i am not sure if thats a good thing altogether. coz at times i really feel my motivation get eaten away from the increasing output of my energy and time and the decreasing monetary reward i am inputting in my back…

2) Need to manage my finances better, man! not sure how, but some how. haha!

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nights everyone. till i tap the keyboards again, make sure u drink loads of water, get enough rest, take some vitamins, and don’t panic even if H1N1 has hit the SG shores. The health ministry says its fatality rate is lower than that of common flu right? haha!

Getting started and A lady I didn’t like

Life’s a bitch! LOL! Nah, it really isn’t. Because I think it is not a female. haha! No sexist intentions here, but I think at present Life’s great really. To know that you can do so much more than you are doing right now in this time frame. To know that the possibilities are endless and there are always chances that things is going to be so much better than before, IF we move our ass and get started with doing things which brings us to that state!

Hmmm.. I guess the beginning is always the toughest. Thats when Life is really a Bitch. When you get started, you are always faced with inertia. Possibilities are made to look impossible. What you say that is achievable seems to be unsurmountable. You are running but feels like you’re chained to cannonballs. You are swimming but the water feels like thick grease. *Hmmm.. sounds like I am so in need of Gatorade huh?*

Why am I feeling this way… coz I really wanna get started to run a distance (as in really put on the running shoes and run a few km). Which is nowhere near getting started. But I am pressing on… trying to be more disciplined and press on when my body threatens to surrender from the years of under-utilisation. Can you imagine, my initial attempts in running resulted in stitches at my waist! MY god, I haven’t had stitches when I run since Primary School la! So behold my countrymen, Suet shall press on and emerge victorious!!!!!

I am terribly slack as a bride to be really. My friend who is 15 months away from her wedding is already taking drastic measures like eating some weight loss pills and doing crunches every day, complete with some exercise regime regularly. I am totally slack even with 6 months more to go. I would really like to think I am normal… I would like to get trim and toned for my wedding, but some bride to be-s seem to be making pre-wedding preparations sounds like a disaster… omg.

Lets chill people. Lets do whats needed and enjoy the process. At the meantime, I would still love to indulge in my favourite sinful fares once in a while. *Awwww… please don’t tell me I am supposed to abstain from them?! A few sinful calories won’t do much damages!* heheh!

Of course on a more rational note, I am happy with my current weekly work out plans, eating things I like and oh yes, I’ve been getting off work a little earlier these days! Thats an achievement! So life’s generally going great for me.

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Just to share a little experience I had today.

After Darren bought his spectacles from a shop, I told him, “I will never come back to this shop and buy from that lady. I don’t like her.”

Darren was surprised that I didn’t like her, coz he didn’t see the rationale behind it.

The lady was recommending some specs to Darren and say that he needed something sharper (which will enhance his proffesional image) and that his current specs was too ’student-like’. Ok, fair enough. Then she said to me, “Ay, you don’t mind. He need something more mature, coz he look younger than you leh.”

*roll eyes. ROLL eyes. ROLL EYES! |||-_-

Then she went on, “After I gave birth, my husband also look younger than me, thats why I made him buy specs which are squarish and sharper… blah blah blah…”

ok fine, her husband looked younger than her too… but thats AFTER SHE GAVE BIRTH!

*roll eyes even more.. |||*_*

Walau eh. Her sales tactics are really pretty adverse compared to most places ah…

Some truths hurts, but I think most women are probably petty in this department. And I guess its usually better to just highlight the positive, than to contrast the positive.

Conclusion: I am petty. And I still don’t like her. Hmph! And Darren had a good laugh over my pettines…

Simplicity is bliss

There comes a time when I fell in love with Cable TV all over. Although most of the dramas that they are showing are really repeated.

I was watching some cantonese drama on channel 48, then surfed over to channel 55 and then to channel 56. LOL! Also caught an episode of CSI Miami. I kind of missed House. Although I not quite sure if its still showing. haha!

So what have I been up to? I am getting started on my wedding plans. I have engaged my actual day photographer. I loved his photography and the good thing is he didn’t blow our budget. A great balance of value and quality. haha!I will write more of him next time.

Been to The Wedding Present to confirm my wedding gown. The first time I saw it was like 4 months ago. Looking at it 4 months later, I think the gowns are really breathtaking! Lets hope it makes me a pretty bride yea!

Also went to Mandarin Oriental to see the venue. We (or rather, I) fell in love with the place all over again. Simple and cozy and lovely.

Haha! I think i sounds too much in love. I shall stop. The next thing in my list is gonna be intensive shaping up for me. so gotta work something around my punishing schedule and rid the flabs.

Dum Dee Dee

I bored shitless these days. Or should I really be ‘full of shit’ these days?

- Sigh – pathetic me is suffering from constipation. Fruitless toilet trips. I bet 2 kg of my weight accounts towards the waste materials storing up in my intestines and they better get the hell out of my ass. My usual tummy has now swell to resemble a 3 months pregnant lady… how embarassing…

My apologies if I had sounded crude and disgusting. You ain’t hearing nothing yet really. My best friend from poly and I used to disgust such ‘waste matters’ over the dining table in a matter of fact manner, and it didn’t spoit our appetite. Although I can’t say the same for the other friends who share the table with us… Err… why am I sharing such a gross side of me? lol!

Anyway, some of you probably has seen a really gross and funny side of me. Some of you probably will never see it. As we grow older, we’ve got to learn to be shy. Especially on the social platform. Damn social etiquette. They made me so fake. haha! Actually I don’t even know which is the real me. The shy one or the shameless one. haha!

I realised wordpress’ interface has just gotten a little depressing. I am not sure if its wordpress or its my mac. well, ok lets just say its my mac. Does that warrant me to upgrade to the new 17″ MacBook? Or maybe the 20″ iMac? plleeeeasee… They are looking smokin’ hot!! But I am really just joking. I am really happy with my current 13″. Its handy and I really just surfs the net with it.

Work Life balance to me is still myth. But I aim to make it come true soon. Starting work at this co has been really great. People are great. Whats not to like, when your colleague keep harping on the fact that you are pretty? hahah! On a serious note, thats really just the prelude to telling you, there’s work he needs you to do. haha! But its ok, as long I am pretty. haha! *bimbo! Work has been hectic, with lotsa housekeeping to be done. But it seems kinda impossible, becuase there’s no breathing space for me to do housekeeping. Since there’s no chance to upkeep the house, lets just burn the house down? kekeke!

I have just survived my first one month at work. And it felt like 6 months has flashed passed. Now… does it mean, I felt like I am so familiar with my work already or does it really mean, I feel six months older in the duration of one? haha

Suety’s thoughts are messed up tonight. Sharon’s at UK till 2nd week of May. She hasn’t met her girlfriends for the longest time. She misses her them. She need to get in touch with EArth… There’s a sense of insecurity when you feel that you have flew too far away from the familiarity the Earth for the distant strange skies. She needs to feel her feet unite with the stability of the ground. It gives a strange sense of comfort.

Last Saturday, Suet went a friend’s housewarming party. It felt strange. Strange becuase the few months gap has made her felt so awkward with her friends. She is mentally tired, she can’t focus much on the conversations and her mind seems incapable to retain information for long. Thats bad news really.

I guess, Suet needs to get rested. Probably get something to nourish her weak brains. LOL! Good night everyone. Thanks for staying tune!